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Sunday, April 03, 2005

"J" and "T" (from one moment to another)

As of 12am it will be Sunday and daylights savings time begins which means 12am will become 1am and I will lose an hour. Although I will lose an hour of sleep, I'll gain an hour of daylight which can allow me a longer day of sunlight to enjoy. It's interesting in life when one loses something he or she tends to gain something else.
I guess you can say I'm using this daylight's savings time as a symbolic of my love life as of right now. For example, about two month's ago I met "J" and as always when you meet someone for the first time things seem wonderful and I really enjoyed all the wonderful times I had with "J", but as March arived my times with "J" became few and far between. Although he is going to school and has a very demanding major, I belive he should have made some time for me, but he was just too "busy". I wasn't expecting him to spend every weekend with me, but you know he could have IM'ed me from time to time or even called, but he just couldn't do that. If I wanted to talk to him, I was the one who always had to drop a line first and when I did talk to him our conversations were very short and dull. When I'd ask him if he wanted to hang, again he was either too "busy" or "tired" and when he would entertain the time to hang out with me, it was what I'd call a "booty call time". A "Booty Call time" is any time after 11pm in which a guy wants to hang out with you. When you hang out with someone so late, what is there really to do other than have sex. Although, sex is fun and it was enjoyable with "J", that's not what I want out of life/in a relationship. I want a companion who'll want to do stuff with me/be my friend. Finally, whenver I'd ask "J" how he felt about me and where he'd like to take things his answer was always "I don't know". I'm sorry, but if a person doesn't know how they feel about you after two moths of dating/talking/messing around, that person probably never will, therefore I've decided to end my "moment" with "J" and move onto other things/people and with that allow me a moment to introduce "T", who I've gained after the loss fo "J".
I met "T" online around Mid March(as I was accepting the fact that my "moment" with "J" is up )and it's funny when I first met/talked to "T". I was completely uninterested and would not entertain the idea of dating him, but I guess "opposties do attract" and he grew on me. He is completely unlike me. For example, he and I have different political and spiritual beliefs. He's a Conservative, Republican, Christian, while I'm a liberal, free spirited, Agnostic, but for whatever reasons we seem to enjoy each other's company. "T" loves my "Bubbly personality", he says I make him smile, and he finds me cute. As for me, I love his "passion" for what he believs in(even if I don't agree with it), his sweet/caring personality, and I find him cute. Anyway, it's still too early to see where this might lead, but for now I'm gonna enjoy this new "moment" with "T" and see where it leads us, and even if we never amount to anything romantic, he and I seem to like each other enough to want to remain friends.

1 Comments:

At 7:12 AM, April 10, 2005, Blogger Billy said...

I hope things between you and T are going ok. Haven't talked to you in awhile, but it's nice to keep up with what is going on in your life through your blog. Got a good laugh about bootie time too, I hope he wasn't using you for that. :( Take care!

 

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