No, You're the one that's ugly!

Yesterday I had the pleasure of hanging out with my ex. From talking to him and from other individuals in the MD/DC area, I'd find out how small the gay community is. It seems like everybody knows someone from somewhere or has dated somebody who knows someone from somewhere etc...... Anyway, he knows the jerk I hung out with earlier this year ("Sinking or Swimming in Dating Pool"). If you remember that entry, the guy only hung out with me for like 20 minutes and then split using the excuse that "he had to talk to his father" and he used the famous Bullshit line of "it's not you, but it's all me". According to my ex, the guy thought I was "ugly" and I "looked cuter in pics". He also told my ex "How could you have stayed with him for four months". I'm not surprized that he didn't like me since the date was so short, but I can't say that such statements don't offend me. Who is he to say such things? When I saw/met him he wasn't that great looking himself and he was so stupid. He could have thought up a better excuse to break the date than "I need to talk to my father".

Anyway, I could go on about him/this, but is it really worth it? Who the hell is he to me and does his opinion really matter? Well, maybe it does in a sense because I'm here writing this blog about him/his comments. You see, growing up and in highschool I've always been labeled as "ugly" or unattractive by my peers and I used to believe them. As a teen I used to have such low self esteem and a horrible self image. It took me many years to over come that adversity and to truly start liking/accpeting myself. I'd realize that many of my peers weren't right about me being "ugly", but were just insecure with themselves.

All in all, I know beauty is in the eye of the beholder, I truly can't please everyone, and there are people and I'll probably still continue to meet people who will find me "ugly", but all I can do is be true to myself, live my life, and treat people the way I wish to be treated no matter how ugly or beautiful they may be.