525,600 Minutes of Blogs

As of yesterday I have officially written year's worth of blogs. Although I didn't write blogs every hour of every day or every day for that matter, I do feel as if I've written enough for one/myself to notice my growth in a years time.

Before I created this account/heard of Blogspot, I've had some friends tell me about their "Livejournals" and asked me to read their journals and or leave coments. The idea of having an online journal sounded kinda cool, but I never really taken the idea seriously until a year ago.

It was the day after Christmas and I was online talking to an online buddy about my current problems. At the time my then significant other broke up with me a little before Christmas (24 hours after my annual holiday party actually) and I was rather depressed. My friend told me about his online journal on "Blogspot.com" and how that helps him cope with problems etc..... I figured I'd give it a shot and with his assistance I created this account. Although I really don't talk to him that much anymore, I'll definitely always credit him for introducing me to blogspot.com. In a way I think of it as his belated Christmas gift to me : )

After reading my jourals, one can read about many highlights such as my first time skiing, the Tori Amos Concert, the Cherry Blossom festival, my new dog, and my new job (Which seemed to dominate much of my most recent posts). In additon to the highlights, I also wrote about my low points, such as in late summer when I had a resurfacing of depression and had one too many "blah days". In addition to that, I seemed to have a hell of a time with dating earlier this year and suffered some major heartbreak from both "J" and "T". Also, I don't want to forget the complete and utter disappointment from "D" (It's not you and It's all me)and the dumb asses I breifly dated this year.

By rereading my past journal entries, I've been able to better learn from my mistakes and I'll say the biggest mistake I made was maybe being a bit too honest about my feelings towards certain people ("J") and not realizing that people do/can read one's journal and whatever you say can and will be used against you. I will admit that I may have been a bit harsh on him, but in my defense, I was very hurt by the way he treated me and I used my blog as a means to vent/make sense of the then current situation. For future reference, I'm just gonna be careful who I share my blogs with and I'll make sure not to be so harsh, but if the person is a total asshole towards me all bets are off.

All in all, I feel as if I've been true with my feelings and expressed them honestly in my blogs. In additon to that, I truly do feel I have grown as a person and these blogs nicely chart my rise throughout the year. I'm not sure what to expect in 2006, but it is my goal to continue to learn and grow as a person. I want to learn new things, meet new people, go to new places. Whatever I do, where I go, or who I meet, I'll be sure to write it somewhere in this blog. Here's to another 525,600 minutes of blogs.........."No day but today"