One too many online profiles?

I just created another online profile on "Myspace.com" and with that I now have three online profiles. If I count this site, which has a profile on it, you can say I have total of four online personals. I'm now wondering if there is a thing as having one too many online profiles and is there any advantage to having a LOT of online profiles. I've noticed that most of the same people are on all these sites and I wonder if he/she is gettting more responses from one site as opposed to the ohter. Also, does that mean John Doe from "Friendster.com", who doesn't respond to my friendster profile, will respond to my "Myspace.com" personal instead. I somehow doubt it. I'm thinking having all these online profiles is just a trendy thing to do and it's a way for people to feel part of something greater. I remember a year or two ago, when "Friendster.com" was the cool thing to have as was "livejournal", but now it seems as if they're a thing of the past. Anyway, I've jumped the bandwagon and created a profile on "Myspace.com" to be in the know and we'll see what becomes of it. I can't really say I did it to meet new people, since I'm sorta kinda dating "J", but I will admit having this online profile makes good back up if things fizzle out between he and I. Hopefully that will not be the case, but with how my luck has been with guys and dating you can never truly know : (

The Always Perfect Timing for Tori Amos to Release a New CD

Yesterday I picked up Tori Amos'new CD and I could not have asked for a better time for this CD to come out with everything that's been going on.
It's funny it seems as if Tori Amos seems to know the right time to relase a new CD. For example, way back in 1996 when I realized my so called friends were just using me and didn't really care/accept me for me. I had her "Boys for Pele" in heavy rotation. Two years later, when I was dealing with a one way crush with a str8 guy, it was Tori's "From the Choirgirl Hotel" that helped me get over him. Now I have her new CD and it's helping me make sense of my life and my dating situation with "J". I actually dedicated one of the songs to him. It's called "Sleeps with Butterflies" and I think it reminds me of our current situation anyway, let's take a look at some of the lyrics............

Airplanes take you away again
Are you flying above where we live
Then I look up a glare in my eyes
Are you having regrets about last night
I'm not but I like the rivers that rush in so then
I dove in
is there trouble ahead for you
the acrobat
I won't push you unless you've got a net
You say the word you know
I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
and I believe
that I'm worth comming home
to kiss the night away
This girl only sleeps with butterflies.......

Although this song probably has a different meaning when Tori wrote it, but the thing that makes good art is when a person can look into something and relate to it and make it his/her own as I can do with Tori Amos' music. All in all, I'm definitely enjoying this new CD and I highly reccomend it........LOL this blog has become an advertisement

Risky "J"

As you know, I've had crap luck with dating/guys, but as of late that has not been the case and I've been talking to/hanging out/messing around with this guy I'll call "J". So far I've been enjoying his company and we try to hang out as much as we can, but we both have very busy schedules. I work two jobs, while he's a law student at George Washington University. Anyway, so far so good and we make the time to hang out at least once/twice a week and we even got to spend Valentine's day together, but there's still a degree of uncertainty with him. For example, he's originally from California and he came to MD/DC for school. There's no guarantee he'll stick around when he finishes his degree. Also, he's been looking for summer internships in a variety of different places such as DC, Boston, New York, Atlanta, and San Fransisco. If gets accepted at any place other than DC, then I can count out on any summer fun with this guy. For the time being, I'm enjoying the moment with him, but I will say all this uncertainty does make me kinda nervous. I'm affriad of investing too much feelings into him and end up being hurt/dumped. On the other hand, if I end things based on this fear of "being hurt", I'll never know what he and I could become and I'll miss out on some good times. I have talked with him about this as well, and he said something along the lines of "I enjoy hanging out with you, but I can't promise anything, but I want to see how long this lasts and where it might go".
Life is about taking risks and I'm definitely risking a LOT when it comes to dating "J", but I think when it comes down to it, I'd be taking a bigger risk in not dating him and letting my fear overwhelm me. Sometimes "one year of love is better than a lifetime alone" and even if it does end for whatever circumstances, I'd hope he and I could remain friends and I can look back and say I had a great time with him, but until that day (if it happens) With all that being said, I've decided that I'm gonna continue make the most of my time with "J" and I'll take pleasure in every kiss, cuddle, evenings watching TV together, the dinners at Boston Market, and the shopping trips and continue to hope this is just the beginning of many more pleasant memories.

Opportunity is Knocking

A year ago my boss resigned from her position as a Program coordinator at United Cerebral Palsy. Claiming I'd be a great candidate to fill her shoes, I applied and interviewed for the position which would mean a HUGE salary increase for me and it would FINALLY free me from working two jobs. Anyway, to make a long story short, I wasn't offered the position and it was given to a fellow coworker (I'll call her Miss C.) who happened to be older and worked about a year longer than I. I'll admit I was a little bitter because I had the education and experience to do the job and I was upset how it all came down to a pecking order. Anyway, a year passes and in that year Miss C. messes up her caseload among other things and last friday I see her pack up her stuff and leave. I'm not sure if she was fired or if she just had it with the job. Anyway, the job is now avaialbe as if it was waiting for me. If that "pecking order" theory is correct, it would mean the job should go to me when/if I apply for it.

I guess now I wonder if I really want the job and if I'm ready for it. Since so much stuff has been messed up, I'd definitely have my work cut out for me and I'm a little nervous about failing. If I go for this job, it would mean no turning back (my current position would most likely be filled by someone else)and if I fail it would mean I'd be without a job and I really can't afford the luxury of not working. On the other hand, if I don't take a risk, I'll never know my potential and I won't gain anything.

If for some reason I screw up/lose my job, I know I've got a strong social network of freinds/family who'll look out for me and actually one of my friends gave me the following advice if/when I get the job.
1) Blame your predecessor
2) Reorganize
3) Let your successor know to blame yoru predecessor and then reorganize

Anway, everything is still up in the air for now, but you know what they say about opportunity, "When opportunity knocks, you answer the door, but if you close the door on an opportunity, it won't be around when you open that door again"