"A" is not for Abercrombie

This past weekend I definitely learned that no matter how cute or sexy a person might be there has to be some substance behind the appearance for me to find the individual remotely attractive.

Again, through the magic of myspace, I meet someone a little while ago and this person was HOT. I'll call the individaul "Abercrombie" because he works there and he looks like one of their infamous models (VERY SEXY). Anyway, looking at Abercrombie's profile, the individual seemed very popular with the boys and had over 800 plus friends and for whatever reasons this person wanted to add me. We talked online for a while, but our conversations didn't go much beyond talking about sex and what we'd do with each other etc... Based on that and how the individual presented himself in his profile, I had a gut feeling that this person would be very shallow and anything we would do would most likely involve sex/fooling around. I really didn't see he and I hanging out or him attending social functions with my friends Despite my gut feeling, we met up on Sunday and we attempted to mess around, but despite Abercrombie's "hotness" I just couldn't do anything. Although I've had my moments of screwing around/being a slut LOL, I'm just not the type of person who can have sex on a whim and also I tend to associate sex with love. Yes, I'lll admit physical attraction is very important when making "love", but there just has got to be more foundations for me than that. If I'm intimate with someone, I want it to be with someone who I love and who I believe loves me back. Anyway, despite my attempts and the tempation, I just couldn't go through with it and Abercrombie went on his way. At the time I wasn't sure what to think, because I've always dreamed of messing around with someone so "hot" and it was literally an open invitation, but I guess my REAL head took charge of my OTHER head. (which I was clearly thinking with at first)

Also, while Abercrombie was in my company I couldn't seem to get "A" out of my head. "A" is an individual I met about a month ago at a friend's B-day celebration. Despite the fact I already had a "date" for that event, "A" approaches me and flirts with me a bit. When I first saw "A" I couldn't say I was completely attracted to him, but he did have a unique cuteness and he was a nice guy. Anyway, feeling bad that I didn't get a chance to talk to him, I sent him a message through myspace (everybody seems to have on of those profiles)and we've talked/hung out since then. Despite the fact "A" doesn't look like an Abercrombie model, "A" does have a distinct cuteness, he's a really fun guy to be around, and he's just nice. He and I do have some common friends and interests. Also, "A" seems open to trying/dong new things as am I. The only disadvantages with "A" is that he is friends with "J" and that they have messed around before, has used drugs, and is very much involved in the party scene. The friendship with "J" definitely makes things awkward for me, and I've stopped using drugs 10 years and going strong, and although I love a good party, I'm not the type who likes to go out every weekend and stay out until 5 or 7am.

Anyway, maybe I'm just looking into things too much and I should just enjoy the times I do have with "A" and see what happens if anything beyond what it is now. Again, some of my previous mistakes have been putting all my eggs in one basket or rushing into things and now after my exeprience with Abercrombie, I've learned that there's gotta be a LOT more than just cuteness to score with me.